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Leaviing Exams

2008-06-13T11:16:02Z

As of now, this moment, i am officially done with exams. done. done. done. and so comes the question: " how do you feel?" and the obvious answer would be " i am excited and relieved." yes i am relieved but not so much excited . its not a matter of the freedom but actualy what iv'e accomlished during those stressed exam weeks. and i dont think i am in a position where i can be completely free and joyful. its not like that at all. afterall, i have results to look forward to.

that aside, i have so much plans for myself for this 2 months holiday. this includes doing more art, more laptop time, making videos, write fictions, read books and take up a sport and tech myself how to play an instrument. yes, i do feel ambitious. heck no, i am not going to waste my time. i am actually serious for once and i am going to do all those . yessss!!!! art! i am doing more figure drawings. okay fine, i dont really mind if it still has that anime touch to it but i am going to observe Inoue Takehikos work ----the creator and artist of the popular japanese show slam dunk. it is currently and was one of my favourite show and guess what! it STILL IS! Rukawa is amazing! and sakuragi is an awsome Do'ahou. i love his work. it is magnifique. his style is somewhat realism iv'e seen . just look at that! i love!

example of his art. i really like it. and since i can only do things one at atime hopefully i'll bring it to a more realistic style

whatever it is, most probably i'll be putting it up here on this here blog. ^^

Who's your Dana!

2008-04-10T19:16:58Z

Its Sasori Dammiit! All Hail the hotnessss of the hotnesss...Sasori.

Sasori specializes in creating puppets out of the dead bodies of humans, which is done by removing its entrails and preserving it to prevent decomposition. Sasori is commonly seen with Hiruko (ヒルコ), a large puppet he wears like a suit so often that many characters can only recognize him while he is wearing it.His most versatile puppet, however, is himself, as he has long since converted his body into one. In addition to giving him an unnaturally young appearance, Sasori's puppet body allows him to control hundreds of puppets at once. Since he needs part of his original body to control puppets Sasori has preserved his heart in a cylinder-shaped device that he wears upon his chest. Sasori is able to survive any kind of attack so long as his heart remains undamaged, and he can even use it to switch to new bodies by simply placing the cylinder onto a new puppet. Every weapon that his puppets wield is laced with a poison of Sasori's own design; the poison instantly numbs the body and kills the target after three days. Despite his large arsenal of weapons, Sasori is defeated and killed after a prolonged battle with his grandmother and sakura.






   How i end up with Naruto, i'll never know. Sasori is in it. ^^ He is eviilly amazing. but too bad, he died. strange, all the brilliant guys end up dead thse days.

Talent Show

2008-04-10T18:46:47Z

Haha. well, it turned out as predicted, i unfortunately update something that was intended to be posted long ago. but well, you know, i honestly lack motivation to do so these day. its not for the natural reason that i am lazy if that 's the case, but its just, this time...i have been occupieed, for real. Exams are coming in a month and the percentage of me actually prepared for it is only possibly 40% and that is horribly worrying in my account. if iam nto able to pass this exam, hmmm...i'll bleed myself to death. but that isa stoory for another day ^^

Now, as promised, pictures of the talent show.

I have been neglecting updates and that pretty much ends my so called " comitment" for this blog. i thought i will be able to update as often as i can but unfortunately, it will difficult for me to do so. but neverthe less, i will update as soon as i have something eventful to write about or i could just simply ramble on about absolutely anything if i feel like it. but as for the past few days, it has not motivated me to posst entries more often than i would love to. however, that does not mean it will end right here right now and i'll not be posting anymore. hell no, i have too many incomplete bloggs that i have abandoned so easily and to do such a thing to this one would wasteful dont you think? not that the others are not wasteful.

UPDATESSS!!!! NEED THEM!

2008-04-04T19:51:16Z

I need updatesss! updatesss!!! i WANT updatesss! no, NEEDD updatesss! unfortunately, i can't right now. i do not have the pictures i needed to complete my updates. i could just go along and update but that would make it only half done i refuse to do so! sorry, its been afew days now and i am unable to keep up. so much for that. Wait....why am i telling you thiss?

Writer's Block: The Perfect Crime

2008-04-04T18:50:23Z

What was the last thing you "got away with?"

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Got away with loads of things. I can get away with tons and noone till now could ever find out. But to be honest, there was a few that i didnt get away with. -----had no idea what i did wrong, it seemed so perfect. i didn't get away with hiding my report. my school report. and no, i didn't do this usually just that one time when i knew if my parents ever found out they'd kill me. and there came a time when i had to this---not becasue i find it better this way but i find it necessary if i ever want to stay alive. But i am sure, things like this happens to most. or not. Hahahah.

Writer's Block: Where in the World...

2008-04-02T09:37:54Z

If you were independently wealthy, where in the world would you live and how would you spend your time?

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This is hard. if i was independantly weatlthy, i would live in a huge mansion filled with servents and people to do work for me---all i had to do is snap my fingers and request for things. and of course, my mansion must have my desired wants and needs! Iam obviously easily spoilt if i have this sort of advantage and power, so this is exactly why its best that i don't. besides, being independently wealthy could get really lonely and possibly boring---though i dont see how that is possible. maybe i would like to do things on my own instead of making people do it for me.. maybe.

It Ends Today.

2008-04-01T12:43:13Z

Today was strangely weird. -----unlike yesterday, yesterday was such a wasted day. today, as everyone know it, is April fools. so, everyone is so excited about playing jokes and pulling pranks on everyone. hmmm, it may just be me, but i dont see any point in this odd occasion. yeah, sure, tons of fun. tempting.....but no. april fools shouldn't even exist. apologies, but i think its best that way. just that one day to pull pranks on people? you could well enough do that everyday, its bad enough we have a day made for it. agggh!~ wasted!

well, yes, its obvious that today isn't exactly my day. i have been really annoyed and exasperated today. its just this day.... its so ...frustrating? sort of...boring? well, no, today occupies me so much that i hardly have the time to yawn. maybe iv'e been dissapointed. yes, that would be right...dissapointed. i just had a biology test. it put me down so badly.----my fault. but still, today i predicted what i am capable of in the upcoming test and its not something i am particulary happy about. lets put it this way then, if i dont get this test to a satisfactory level, i am not able to do anything with my life anymore. -----my world as we know it ends right then and there. that is exactly why i have to dedicat my entire holiday to studying. for real this time, not just saying it and end up not doing anything.
Iv'e said things that i always end up not fufilling.yes, i know its my own fault and i must dealt with the consequences. but i hadn;t had much motivation lately which is a really lame excuse to get out of doing something. but right now, i cant rely on motivation anymore. i must make my own drive, i have to understand what hard work is really like.--- iv'e yet to experience that. besides, i'll have good amount of motivation anyway when i start thinking about this matter again.

anyway, besides that, i am rather satisfied with my english coursework. my original writing is coming together quite nicely. now, i don't know if iam allowed to write about fiction death-note stuff but it is my own original writing and my own ideas, so...i guess its fine. its too brilliant to get rejected anyway, i hope. i didn't plan to make it my original writing anyway because what i thought ws that this time i'd do poetry or something different instead. but i like where the stroty is going and its a simple plot anyway so, it wouldn't be as confusing.^^

Fluenza

2008-03-30T13:08:29Z

Man, i got a serious flu. aaaggghh! it's killing me. my nose is runny, blocked and bleeding. and the whole day was a sneeze day. i cant even breath without releasing unwanted fluids down my nose. it is disgusting. had tons of tissue covering my desk today and the teachers stares at me as if i had a wall covered-tissue built round me for defence. this day got that much horrible because of thei wretched flu. i'd say the teachers were quite annoyed with my constant sneezing. but yeah, what can you do about it.
to top it all of, i took my chemistry test withmy sickly nose. aggghhh! well, either way, the test was hard and i dont feel i was prepared enough.

anyway, i found this gorgeous Light x L doujinshi vid on youtube. ahhh! it was brilliant.the artwork is beautiful----from sabi, balgus REC. i have various doujinshi colection of it and it was fuckkkiiin gorgeous! the storyy line is humour/ romance. so, its sweet and funny! hahaha! they were cross-dressing----hillarious. and aaawhh, it has one of the best Light x L interaction ever. <3

Hell yeah! see that! their interaction are beautiful. and again, L, being in control. well, Light thought he was but then it his plans didn't go exactly the way he imagined it to be. yeah, i like that. the idea of his plans back fire because of that one thing he never thought could happen to him----falling for L. the expression on their faces, its just so taken back and so shock- like that it adds up to the whole situation. of course, they cant just come to a conclusion that they are in love. no, theres the whole moment and the whole realisation of the feeling.---longing, want, need and love. pretty soon, they will realise they cant live a second without eachother. beautiful. fine, it might not be straight, but i can assure you, it stands out just as much. ---in fact, more!!!
well, yes. anyway, i think i'll express myself and do some random sketches on my sketch book. yeah, i feel inspiered for some odd reason.

Writer's Block: Friends Forever

2008-03-30T11:50:19Z

What do you bring most to a friendship?

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what do i bring most to a friendship? theres humour. becasue yes, unfortunately, i humour my friends without realising that i am actually making them laugh. so theres humour...and i can be someone who gives advice. though i doubt some of them work but i try my best by thinking the best alternative to solve a friend's problem whenever possible. i am someone who my friends just spitt out their guts to--- they tell me what they think and stuff like that. but i sometimes can be the very matter of their amusement. but yes, i find myself quite amusing as well.

between the frustration and the Pleasure.

2008-03-29T20:02:30Z

Had nothing but frustration all week due to massive amount of courseworks and revision. But the hell! i didn't even do the assignment properly, its nothing but last minuite work. well, aggh! my fault. deadline is everything today and tomorrow---no day later.
but i fear, coursework is only half the stress. wait until revision and past papers----- ouch!
didn't get enough sleep lately, i could see dark circles around my eyes now.----even if i do want to resemble L, but unfortunately, i just like a tired hobo without sleep. but i have been real lazy now and then and dozed off from my " work" shame, i screw things up now..

but anyway, i just feel i deserve more frustration free day. i don't really but i have to calm myself down and un-stress myself. so, i went to devaintart and google today---yay me! and i found gorgeous Light x L doujinshi online!----hell yeah! it was hot and yes, it certainly turned me on. but i feel that i haven;t been getting enough which is impossible when i have billions already. but oh well, it never satifies me., i need more than i have which is...um...ALOT! theres so much and i have not a clue on how to download it----i have to buy, but i cant becasue not allowed to. damn! cursed this wretched rules!

well, the only way to simply to keep myself entertained is to browse through countless websites and search for Light x L stuff. and so very pleased with myself and very rewarding as well. ^^ yeah! guessed it right, got the picture randomly and it is well hot. it is Light x L! i just love the interaction between the two. notice how L's kiss looks so dominat and demanding and light looks as if he 's force into it or something---probably just taken by surprise, now, i have never imagined L to have that sort of force because usually i would see this more fitting to light since he has a mind of a murderer. but L is however, a few years older than light, so it be natural wouldn't it?
But personally, L should be the one under and light should be the one in control. but either way works.

Lawl. you could practically see drips of saliva dripping down betwen their lips---if thats not seeexy, i dont know what is.. well, anyway, i have an effin science tomorrow- not prepared whatsoever. AGGGHHHH! but mmmm, not so worried about it---only slight.

Writer's Block: No Laughing Matter

2008-03-29T18:52:35Z

What do you think is too serious to joke about?

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when people joke about deaths and other's faults/ feelings, i don't think its all that funny at all. people tend to make joke out odf serious stuff that to ammuse themselves. understandable. but, might want to consider what others might think-----its no joke.

Writer's Block: "Nothing Sharpens Sight Like Envy"

2008-03-28T08:50:19Z

What quality in your closest friend are you most envious of and why?

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Her amazing social skills and her creativity. my closest friends have these qualities and i must admit, i am rather envious. she could go around and mix around with anyone and everyone while i just sat there by the corner with my best " please get dont't look at me" face and siggghhh. obviously, i am far from socializing. i gusess i am just real shy.^^ and her creativity, it surpass mine. aaarrrggghhh! i am creative! she's just slightly more than i am. but oh well, she's a close friend, it makes me that much more appreciative and its these sort of things that i like about her, the fact that she's my friend when she could find someone else to hang out with.^^

Writer's Block: Sharing is Caring

2008-03-28T08:20:30Z

What do you most hate sharing with other people?

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My most precious things. i don't particularly like the idea of sharing anything that has any importance to me. it could be absolutely anything,----my grades, my books, my friends, my bed, my food etc. i tend to get damn possesive over little things and it bothers people like hell. but hey, its can consider sharing sometimes.^^

Writer's Block: Neurotic Behavior

2008-03-27T21:25:48Z

What is the one thing you're most neurotic about?

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My handwriting. i have to, no, MUST write in perfection if not i will see it as something not worth handed in. in school espeacially. when i write, it has to be neat and satisfying for my eyes. if i dont like it, it will end up in the bin nomatter how " okay" it is, i cant really help it, its like some sort of disease!!! i keep getting complaints from teachers concning my very slow pace when writing and me not completing timed-questions. hahahah.